Aliens are fake; they are baked

and you know what, whatever I had typed out in the last 10mins were wiped! YEs. This sucks, but it's ok. Whatever, I will try to remember the words as much as I can. but you and I know... It will never be the same again... It'll only get better! HAHA!

Anyway, I was just talking about the rise of Technology with a capitol T cos I feel that with the progress of Technology we see the dying of nature. I see the link somehow. Do you? Well, for one thing, I believe, that if we mis-use or over-use technology, something or someone will be "pay" for it. And talking about Aliens, perhaps, they are baked. You know, like with jello-like ingredients, or like some translucent substance and putting in some skelo-plastiq-machine device to make them move and have them all greased with planta or UV-protection oil to have that high-couture gloss. (you know like those men model, and they-think-they-look-damn-hawt-and-greasy, now look at me this instant!)

Have you recently read the newspapers? Honey bees in the States are DYING~! YEs, it's due to the transmission rays from our mobile phones, black berries, whatever whatever talking devices! YEs! The rays are destroying the little honey makers! If we have to switch off our mobile phones on board the plane for the fear of transmission disruption, think what will happen to the tiny insect? Bee-lieve or not, as the rays get too strong, they will somehow affect the bees' orientation and thus, making them harder to find their way back to their factory, they will DIE and get eaten by spiders! Are humans living life with too much luxuries; question ourselves! (Laptop to blog, Phone to SMS, Mp3 player for songs... Oki, I'm not that of a tech-savvist, but, I guess we all have to watch out for nature...

Technologist. Will we all become like Ironman? One day when the sun explodes, everything will become cold, human will be powered by some kinetic-life device which will keep us alive. There will be no emotion, no life, no love... Will this day come? Look at the movies showing on screen! Some are depicting disaster! Surreally speaking, movie-makers have the neck to "predict" and draw this imaginative picture, making the people buy the idea of dying earth and evolution of another kind...

Technology... My mum is still a noob at SMS-ing. I rather she has 0 knowledge so she can be this vintage I-dunno-how-to-sms-still funky lady.

/sigh.

To grow or not to grow?

Have you come to a part of your life when you cannot decide what exactly do you intend to advance? To be something or someone, or simply just live by the day. What causes such disruptions? It's like you are at this cross-road and there's many paths infront of you and it's like a ala-carte... It's not really something buffet-ie... You want to decide, yet you don't feel like doing shit because it's stepping into the unknown and it's that terrible "what-if" question again that haunts you.

I feel this now again and I am serious in not knowing why. I said that I didn't wanna grow up, yet I wanna grow up so I can experience things in life, and at times, I feel like I am this child... There's this infliction and I cringe because I feel so damn tired by the whole dramatic episode.

Is this caused by the self? Is there no outlet where I can actually express this conflict? Perhaps the body and mind do have a limit for things... Things such as "illness" of the mental and/or physical state.

I find myself being happy at one point and only feeling empty the next. I hope this is not some mental psychological stress of the coming of age. Perhaps at this point in life, there're many choices and responsibility and with that, you need to come to a decision. This decision making period is the most exhausting and tedious for I find such weight over-barring and it just tires me out. I, for now feel like just going to a place to calm my nerves... I am beginning to become like this nervous, jumpy and edgy cat. Moody at times too.

I witness a dying star, so I prayed for the world...

I apologise for everything that happened, I just am not in the right state of mind.